An Urge to Channel & Share...

Most of my writing lately has been personal, poetry and through Love School. I was urged today to share from a different place and through video.
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I have been going through a lot of changes lately!

Not even lately really...for years. But the past few months have been accelerated and I have felt pushed and pulled in many directions. Navigating the reality of how to balance and embody the realities of different dimensions in my life.

• My spirtual life and personal growth and healing.
  
• My digital life and social media.
• My real world life, work, money, losses, challenges and health.
  

It has felt very powerful and vulnerable. Feeling human amongst it all has left me dizzy at times. Each moment a choice of how best to keep myself well, how best to express or when to rest. The real feelings of grief and elation. Being isolated and yet feeling a deep connection with God.

We are living through such disconnected yet profound times and being oursleves, meeting the needs of society, caring for our own health and well-being, trying to connect with others while keeping our integrity is all consuming for me.

• Keeping up with any of my previous commitments as new circumstances continue to arise. (Even small things like keeping up with this Blog and my intention to transfer it from the other site.)
  
• Prioritising getting back to work, finding work, knowing where to invest my time to earn money due to very real financial challenges.
  
• Dealing with grief, pain and medical diagnosis of potentially life long illnesses without support. Knowing that if I cling to old ways or the past I could be trapped in this forever and not wanting to be at all. Finding healing through honouring myself, self care and finding balance in a world that demands action, appointments and labels. 
  
• Being isolated and feeling unable to connect with others on a level I feel comforatble or that would support me beyond just physcial exchanges. Feeling a deep need for spiritual and emotional connection that also accepts my vulnerability at times.
  
• Turning to social media to fill a void and finding it addictive, confusing, mind numbing and full of ego based content.
  
• Challenging authorties who make life harder (seemingly intentionally) and deny basic rights or social support who are grasping at power causing harm I can not comply with.
  

Life has been big!

I did ask God for expansion but I did not expect or could have predicted just what that would entail. Expanding into the great unknown, alone as a flawed human.

The times feel profound to me yet so many others are deeply invested in maintaining the status quo... surviving as we all are and none of us knowing where to turn.

Today I woke with a need to express authentically and try to explain some of the complex reality I have been living thorugh. Perhaps, I am not alone in this place and time as humanity evolves and we are the ones living thorugh it!

I posted the ad-hoc video below. It is raw, unedited and unplanned.